~Dinner for Two!~

This dating thing is for the birds.....lol! There are thousands of women out there but God only made one for me. I have been on the dating scene for 3-4 months now and it sucks! I was never one for dating. I think when you get to a certain point in your life, dating should be over and you should be focused on more important things such as raising children and getting married. I try my best not to think about dating but its always on my mind. When and where will I find that next lady, will she be the one this time, and how can I make this relationship better than the last and not fall into the same traps as I did in my last relationship.

So whats wrong with the people I'm dating? Absolutely nothing! I cant really even say I'm dating. Ive hungout with a couple of friends, but really havent invested the time and energy into really trying to make someone the next Mrs. Myrick. Thats sad to say but its the truth and maybe thats just my problem. 

 I have met several beautiful young lady's but to me, there was no chemistry. I dont know why but I like a certain type of girl, I like girlie girls. Girls that are classy and elegant, well educated and always a lady around my friends and family. Am I wrong for what I like? I need a women thats going to upgrade me, teach me something new and expose me to things that are beyond what I have experienced. I need a fun and adventurous lady, someone not afraid to take a risk and demand that I take the risk with her. Someone thats going to be faithful, fun and a friend. I guess you could say I need the three F's...you would really make that four F's if you get my drift. I come to really value trust and respect in a relationship.

So why havent I found that special someone? I have know ideal...only God knows the answer to that question. But I do have some thoughts on the matter. For starters, I think I need to stop looking.....for some reason whenever I go out looking for that "one" I never seem find them. But as soon as I turn my attention and energy to something else, God will send that "one" my way. Sadly, when God does send the "one" I usually find a way to mess it up. My last relationship is the perfect example. We were great together, we got along well, had great chemistry and shared many of the same values. I was sure this person was going to be the one that I married. I was in consistent prayer with God to give me direction on the question of marriage and I had made up my mind as to what I was going to do. Then one day everything changed. I believe God tested my faith and commitment to this young lady and I failed miserably. God really wanted to see if I was ready for the responsible of marriage and a family like I thought I was. In the end I wasnt. I learned a lot from that experience and still think about the decisions I made until this day.

In addition, maybe i'm a little self centered. For some reason when I meet a young lady I want her to be all about me. What I want, how I want it, and when I want it. I dont like feeling as if I'm chasing a young lady. I want the young lady to be straight forward with me, pour out her feelings and if I like her and feel that we have chemistry then we can move forward. I know a lot of that is unrealistic, but thats how I feel sometimes and Im trying my best to not feel that way as much. I guess it would be easier if I could just read minds. If I knew what a young lady was thinking then all my problems would be solved. 

Dont get me wrong, I didnt write this post as an appeal to anyone. I am simply discussing my displeasure with the whole dating scene and the process of dating period.


UPDATE: This post was created awhile ago and I never got a chance to posted it. These are just my thoughts at the time. As of right now I dont feel exactly the same way and as I did at this point. Its funny how things can change over a matter of days or weeks. Right now, there is a young lady in my life that I enjoy hanging out with.....so lets see where this goes.