The Lord is my Shepperd ~ I shall not want

Today I went to church and realized that my relationship with God wasn't where I wanted it to be. I realized that my relationship with him, just like a  lot of my personal relationships with females, had grown stagnant, and I hadn't taken the necessary steps to progress our relationship. So how can I progress this relationship? How can I make it better? The answer came to me in church today when the pastor opened up the church for new members. Usually when this happens I think to myself that I already belong to a church and that I'm already baptized so what is the need to change my membership.  But today was different, today my thought process changed. Today I was thinking why am I holding back from God. Why am I afraid to totally give myself to him and to the church? What is the worst that could happen.... going to heaven? Thats not a bad thing....lol, ultimately that is my goal in life. To make it to heaven.

I have really been holding back on joining a church here in Charlotte simply because I wasn't sure if I would be here for a long period of time. My career over the last couple years has really been moving and I have had three jobs in the last four years. I think I've gotten to the point were i'm ready to join a church here in Charlotte. I have been going to Friendship Baptist Church for almost two years now and I love it. Pastor Jones is awesome. He is a great pastor and role model to me and the men of Friendship. I like the environment at Friendship, as well as the message. Friendship is all about missionary work and providing for the poor and needy in Charlotte as well as other parts of the county and world. That message is directly reflective of what I want to do in my career in working with low income individuals throughout neighborhoods in Charlotte.

So what is holding me back? Thats a good question. Mainly, I would have to switch my membership from my church back home and that would, to me, signify to my family, that I am in Charlotte for good and wouldn't be moving back home anytime soon. That is not totally a bad thing. I have never considered moving back home at anytime. Its just not feasible for me to do so. There are no jobs in Hobgood in my field.  Secondly, I'm not sure I  would have time to actively participate in extra church activities outside of my normal church hours. I know that sounds bad but thats how I feel right now. I know you can never put anything before God and I'm not trying to, God is first in my life and always will be.

So will I join Friendship in the upcoming weeks? I'm not sure, only God knowns the time and the date when I will join another church. Until then I will continue to go to Friendship and enjoy the service until that day that God pushes me into the ales and I walk up in front of the church and change my membership. It could be sooner than you think!