~ ......And the Winner Is....~

Life right now feels like I'm in a casino playing the lottery. You play to win but the out come is the same, you eventually lose! Some people lose money, other lose much more. It all boils down to you deciding how long you want to play the game.

It's not like there is a shortage of lottery tickets or places to play, its just the scratch-off tickets that are out there are only good for one play. If you lose, then you are required to go buy another if you want to continue. The whole process of going to the store and buying the right ticket, hoping that this is the one is a little unincouraging if your only looking to play once and hit the big one. Many see the process of buying the right ticket as the trill of the game, the excitement around the possibility of making it big. But for me its the exact opposite. Before I starting playing the lottery again, I was completely happy. I was content. I didnt need to play the game but something deep down inside of me was always trying to encourage me to play. To go out and find that next golden ticket. Encouragement to play is everywhere you look. You see it on the tv, at your local gas station, even at Mcdonalds with their Monopoly game. Its hard to escape the temptation of playing the game.

I would see friends playing and winning small amounts of money here and there but none winning it big. Ive also seen people play, win it big, continue to play and lose everything. Once addicted the temptation of playing never went away. Some people enjoy playing online but internet sweepstates games always end up bad, trust me on this one I know....lol.

A lot of people get addicted to playing the lottery. Its fun at first and there is a lot of excitement surrounded around winning. Its hard not to get addicted to a game like this when the reward can be so high. If your lucky its a win-win situation.

On the downside, the lottery can put you in the poor house. A lot of people have gotten themselve into a lot of trouble playing the lottery. One particular problem is when some people win, they do not know how to stop playing. Its addictive, and you start to believe if I won this time, why not play again and try to win even more money. The problem with continuously playing is that eventually your going to lose, and more than likely you will lose it all.

I just started playing the lotttery again and I'm already ready for rehab. The lottery is cool, but I need to win without playing the game. Im not even sure if thats even possible anymore.

Maybe I'm playing the wrong games, maybe these scratch off tickets Ive been playing are only going to bring meagar returns. I need to step my gambling game up and play blackjack. Play with the big boys. The only problem with playing with the big boys is that you need big boy money to play and if you lose your going to get burned like the big boys.

Back in the day, in my college days, it was like I lived in Vegas and I was a billionaire. It was easy for you to play the lottery everyday and win often. The game was different  back then and a whole lot easier to play. I didnt expect to hold on to our winning long, I took the payouts as the came, no questions asked. Nowadays, post college, its a little less Vegas and more like going to the lundary mat playing the slot machine, hoping to get four red cherries in a row. The excitement in the game is gone. No more pleasure out of playing everyday or being the the biggest casino boss in the land. Its all about winning now and getting out of the game. Finding the golden ticket and saying your good byes.


Idk, maybe I'm not cut out for this game anymore. Maybe I was never a gambler like I once thought. Or maybe old age has made me soft. Whatever it is I'm ready to turn my poker cards in and give the game up.

At least I think I am.......